Post by Mistress Grim on Jul 3, 2010 5:20:38 GMT -5
Remember when I wrote this earlier?:
I found out something far-fetched, yet so much.
The problem with me is that I just can't believe it. I'm astounded!
I had to see Gena out to get some answers. Hell, I even spoke with Blackheart and Ace.
I just couldn't believe it. I just couldn't...
I talked to this universe's and the other ones, too.. And when I couldn't inquire, I peeked...
o___o
Please hold onto your seats... This is going to be a bumpy ride.
This does NOT go for Ben. Because when Yusuke made him, Yusuke didn't know and when Gena told him, it was too late.
He wasn't really happy with it at first... Not at all. It's something Gena always wanted to keep as a secret. And this proves that is more like Blackheart than her mother or anyone else combined.
Both Yusuke and myself wondered at what the hell she was getting at here.
Her and her fucked up riddles! -_____-
"What are you saying, Gena?"
"I... Well... To umm... *takes a deep breath, tugs on a strand of her own hair nervously* ...At least no one else but Ben can touch her. I made sure of that, apparently..."
"...o__o You placed this curse upon our child?"
"N-n-not entirely! ...It was...bound to happen.. It couldn't be prevented! Because.. Of.. *shakes head* Who she is... What she is... Her person... Her destiny... Her...soul..."
"...Gena..."
"...I.. I don't know what to say! I don't know what to tell you! I tried to hide it! I did! I tried to! Desperately! I didn't want you to know! I didn't want you to find out! But... Billie isn't her own person. She is, but she isn't... She is my heir, but she's more than that!"
>__< Oh, godsss....
-____-;;; Technically, I know exactly what she's saying here.
Remember Kikiyo and Kagome from InuYasha? Gena is Kikiyo and Kagame is Billie... And vice versa.
Amazingly, Gena manage to give Billie so much power.. So much, if she had just a teeny fiber more, she would have died..
-__- Now I know why Billie is so confusing.. And why she reminds me of Gena so much.. Yet.. Is different in her own way... THE HELL. THE HELL. THE HELL.
And why her mom worries about her so much, why she has such an attachment and yet keeps a distance from her... It's.. The reason as to why is more than just being motherly or...pushing her away.
And Gena refused to answer that... And Yusuke isn't happy. Not at all.
.__. Gena just watched him march out the door.. And yelled after him, saying; "But she loves Ben! She doesn't know!"
And she's trying hard not to break apart. I sense deep remorse coming from her, as well as shame, and helplessness.
*sighs* She didn't want anyone to know. Not Yusuke. Not Ben. Not SO, Blackheart, Lilith, no one.. Not even... Billie.
Gods... This has got to be the most twisted secret I've ever known in my life.
Poor Billie.
Poor Ben.
What are we going to do? WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?!
I don't know what to do. T____T
Billie. I care for her. Her life has been pure hell. So much confusion. So much hell. So much pain. All her life, she's struggled.. Mostly in trying to find who she is... And when she thinks she does, she's lost again... She's...so very far away. So very far away..
I don't know what to do about Ben. I love the guy... And I know they were made to be together and be with each other... But.. He causes her...so much pain... Every damn universe I find... I dunno anymore.
Maybe before...everything was okay... But now... I just don't know.
I'm so lost! I'm so lost!
I knew that there was something wrong with Billie! That there was something to her, something more than what meets the eye... I knew... I knew...a lot of things... I had my hunches...everything...
But this... I never knew... THIS. I never would have ever DREAMED of it being this!
Ben.. Ben.. I don't know about Ben anymore..
When I watch him, I want to cry... Not for his own sake... No.. It's just something about him...
I don't think Ben has a REAL or actual soul mate. Sort of like Yuuki doesn't, which is why he can be with the girl he fell in love with... Just like all the others who are born of eggs. Or were half-breeds or something that was wrong with them... I don't know..
T___T I want to cry! SO HARD. I want to cry!
I was not looking for this! I wasn't! I didn't... I never dreamed for it to turn out to be this! I...
I guess... The truth can be ugly... SO DAMN UGLY.
Ben's supposed to be her mate! But.. Even though she belongs to him, she...doesn't either.
I don't know what Yusuke is going to do...
And I don't know what our Yusuke (in the IM rps) is going to do when he finds out, too.
This is a MESS.
And Ben.. I don't know.. I want to feel horrible for him.. I seriously do.. But.. I guess we can thank Ronan for it... But... GODS, he's been a REAL DICK. Seriously, the more I watch him, the more he turns out to be one...
.____. And the scariest thing is... Isn't he supposed to be more powerful than his dad?
OHGODS!
THIS IS A NIGHTMARE!
OMGS! I learned a secret! A real revelation here!
If Billie loves you strong enough... It seems to be concept of...love... LOVE!! If Billie loves a person unconditionally, if they have a place in her heart...and I mean, really love you...there's...a way... THE SECRET! LOVE CONQUERS ALL!
I mean, others are in her heart... But not like her parents! She truly and genuinely loves them!
And this only came to be...not so long ago.. I am so lost and confused... She loves Ben. Ben is her mate. He's the only one who can touch her... But because she loves her parents so much, they, too, can touch her... I think..
Gods.. I don't understand this... They couldn't touch her before! What the hell is going on here?!
Wait.. Did they do something? Did Jude form a blood bond with her? That's dangerous as hell as well as horrendously risky! Not only that, but it has repercussions! That is something, what they did exactly, the bond that they made...is not between sisters or brothers, but of lovers! WHY? Why did he do that? Is it because they wanted their little girl back? Would they really risk that?!
Apparently so. YIKES!
If Billie loves you strong enough... It seems to be concept of...love... LOVE!! If Billie loves a person unconditionally, if they have a place in her heart...and I mean, really love you...there's...a way... THE SECRET! LOVE CONQUERS ALL!
I mean, others are in her heart... But not like her parents! She truly and genuinely loves them!
And this only came to be...not so long ago.. I am so lost and confused... She loves Ben. Ben is her mate. He's the only one who can touch her... But because she loves her parents so much, they, too, can touch her... I think..
Gods.. I don't understand this... They couldn't touch her before! What the hell is going on here?!
Wait.. Did they do something? Did Jude form a blood bond with her? That's dangerous as hell as well as horrendously risky! Not only that, but it has repercussions! That is something, what they did exactly, the bond that they made...is not between sisters or brothers, but of lovers! WHY? Why did he do that? Is it because they wanted their little girl back? Would they really risk that?!
Apparently so. YIKES!
I found out something far-fetched, yet so much.
The problem with me is that I just can't believe it. I'm astounded!
I had to see Gena out to get some answers. Hell, I even spoke with Blackheart and Ace.
I just couldn't believe it. I just couldn't...
I talked to this universe's and the other ones, too.. And when I couldn't inquire, I peeked...
o___o
Please hold onto your seats... This is going to be a bumpy ride.
This does NOT go for Ben. Because when Yusuke made him, Yusuke didn't know and when Gena told him, it was too late.
He wasn't really happy with it at first... Not at all. It's something Gena always wanted to keep as a secret. And this proves that is more like Blackheart than her mother or anyone else combined.
"...I wanted her to be special. Really special. More than just having extreme amounts of power, more than being by far the most powerful god, let alone creature in all the known and unknown universe..."
Both Yusuke and myself wondered at what the hell she was getting at here.
"I wanted a special daughter. A special heir.. ..Perhaps I was too selfish. But Billie wouldn't be who she is today...hell, she wouldn't even exist... If I hadn't..had done what I had done..."
Her and her fucked up riddles! -_____-
"What are you saying, Gena?"
"I... Well... To umm... *takes a deep breath, tugs on a strand of her own hair nervously* ...At least no one else but Ben can touch her. I made sure of that, apparently..."
"...o__o You placed this curse upon our child?"
"N-n-not entirely! ...It was...bound to happen.. It couldn't be prevented! Because.. Of.. *shakes head* Who she is... What she is... Her person... Her destiny... Her...soul..."
"...Gena..."
"...I.. I don't know what to say! I don't know what to tell you! I tried to hide it! I did! I tried to! Desperately! I didn't want you to know! I didn't want you to find out! But... Billie isn't her own person. She is, but she isn't... She is my heir, but she's more than that!"
>__< Oh, godsss....
"...You're... Not telling me..that..."
"...*forces herself to nod* She's... Me, yet not. Is part of me, literally, and yet...she is her own person because.. I chose to make her as such. It's sort of like an image in a mirror, or a reincarnated form, yet... There's two of me in one place, at once. She's her person.. It's just. Her soul. It's mine. ...I'm so sorry. I was being so selfish! I took a part of me, a part of my soul while creating her-- Yusuke?"
"*he keeps shaking his head, pulling at the roots of his hair*"
"Yusuke.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't know what I was thinking at the time. When we...made our children.. Blackbird and my other personalities...forged a plan.. I know, I'm greedy! I'm such a greedy bitch for doing such a thing!"
"...Since when? How long?"
"...Both. Both in this life and in the previous. ...Since the very beginning of her existence."
"...How much is there of you in her?"
"...*bites her bottom lip*"
"...Gena. Hirogena..."
"...A lot. A say, a good fifty percent. At least. Maybe more. Again. Her own person, but not. A reincarnated form.. But not. One soul, two bodies..."
"...*forces herself to nod* She's... Me, yet not. Is part of me, literally, and yet...she is her own person because.. I chose to make her as such. It's sort of like an image in a mirror, or a reincarnated form, yet... There's two of me in one place, at once. She's her person.. It's just. Her soul. It's mine. ...I'm so sorry. I was being so selfish! I took a part of me, a part of my soul while creating her-- Yusuke?"
"*he keeps shaking his head, pulling at the roots of his hair*"
"Yusuke.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't know what I was thinking at the time. When we...made our children.. Blackbird and my other personalities...forged a plan.. I know, I'm greedy! I'm such a greedy bitch for doing such a thing!"
"...Since when? How long?"
"...Both. Both in this life and in the previous. ...Since the very beginning of her existence."
"...How much is there of you in her?"
"...*bites her bottom lip*"
"...Gena. Hirogena..."
"...A lot. A say, a good fifty percent. At least. Maybe more. Again. Her own person, but not. A reincarnated form.. But not. One soul, two bodies..."
-____-;;; Technically, I know exactly what she's saying here.
Remember Kikiyo and Kagome from InuYasha? Gena is Kikiyo and Kagame is Billie... And vice versa.
Amazingly, Gena manage to give Billie so much power.. So much, if she had just a teeny fiber more, she would have died..
"So you mean to tell me...that a part of you has been floating around, all this time, waiting to be reborn?"
"Yes.. But I don't know why we can't touch her. It has something to do with... What happened... I understand why no one else can't... But.. I don't know why we can't..."
"...Gena.."
"At least Benjamin can... I mean..."
"Yes.. But I don't know why we can't touch her. It has something to do with... What happened... I understand why no one else can't... But.. I don't know why we can't..."
"...Gena.."
"At least Benjamin can... I mean..."
-__- Now I know why Billie is so confusing.. And why she reminds me of Gena so much.. Yet.. Is different in her own way... THE HELL. THE HELL. THE HELL.
And why her mom worries about her so much, why she has such an attachment and yet keeps a distance from her... It's.. The reason as to why is more than just being motherly or...pushing her away.
"Will she develop her own soul? ...Will she have her own soul, be her own person completely, with no relation to you except for the blood that courses through her veins?"
And Gena refused to answer that... And Yusuke isn't happy. Not at all.
.__. Gena just watched him march out the door.. And yelled after him, saying; "But she loves Ben! She doesn't know!"
And she's trying hard not to break apart. I sense deep remorse coming from her, as well as shame, and helplessness.
*sighs* She didn't want anyone to know. Not Yusuke. Not Ben. Not SO, Blackheart, Lilith, no one.. Not even... Billie.
Gods... This has got to be the most twisted secret I've ever known in my life.
Poor Billie.
Poor Ben.
What are we going to do? WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?!
I don't know what to do. T____T
Billie. I care for her. Her life has been pure hell. So much confusion. So much hell. So much pain. All her life, she's struggled.. Mostly in trying to find who she is... And when she thinks she does, she's lost again... She's...so very far away. So very far away..
I don't know what to do about Ben. I love the guy... And I know they were made to be together and be with each other... But.. He causes her...so much pain... Every damn universe I find... I dunno anymore.
Maybe before...everything was okay... But now... I just don't know.
I'm so lost! I'm so lost!
I knew that there was something wrong with Billie! That there was something to her, something more than what meets the eye... I knew... I knew...a lot of things... I had my hunches...everything...
But this... I never knew... THIS. I never would have ever DREAMED of it being this!
Ben.. Ben.. I don't know about Ben anymore..
When I watch him, I want to cry... Not for his own sake... No.. It's just something about him...
I don't think Ben has a REAL or actual soul mate. Sort of like Yuuki doesn't, which is why he can be with the girl he fell in love with... Just like all the others who are born of eggs. Or were half-breeds or something that was wrong with them... I don't know..
T___T I want to cry! SO HARD. I want to cry!
I was not looking for this! I wasn't! I didn't... I never dreamed for it to turn out to be this! I...
I guess... The truth can be ugly... SO DAMN UGLY.
Ben's supposed to be her mate! But.. Even though she belongs to him, she...doesn't either.
I don't know what Yusuke is going to do...
And I don't know what our Yusuke (in the IM rps) is going to do when he finds out, too.
This is a MESS.
And Ben.. I don't know.. I want to feel horrible for him.. I seriously do.. But.. I guess we can thank Ronan for it... But... GODS, he's been a REAL DICK. Seriously, the more I watch him, the more he turns out to be one...
.____. And the scariest thing is... Isn't he supposed to be more powerful than his dad?
OHGODS!
THIS IS A NIGHTMARE!